Thursday, October 21, 2010

30 Day Challenge Day 3

Day 3 is talking about my first love.....

First I want to start with my friend Webster. He says that Love is a strong affection for another, arising out of kinship or personal ties (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests.

So I have thought about this post all night and so far all day. What was I going to write about? Lets start out about 14 yrs ago..... 14 yrs ago I was sitting in front of a priest and he asked me if there was only 1 person I could ever love. I said no. Well, my husband to be said that was wrong. I should love him and only him. We had this huge fight because I said that I could love other people. We got married on September 14, 1996. Our divorce was final on October 3, 2002. I have loved again.. they actually have nothing to do with my life now so there for they aren't even worth mentioning. All I can say is I have a great love now. Ken and I got married June 13, 2009. We had a greater "Love" together on October 1, 2010. Seeing as I can love more then 1 person I think I can first love more then 1 thing...

So my "First Loves" are as follows.....
I love Love Love LOVE the beach. I get Coastal Living so that I can get decorating ideas for the Beach house I don't have. I love my camera. I love my job. I love Fall. Decorating for Fall is my favorite. I think it is because all the scents I love comes alive in the fall.... Wood burning stoves, the smell of chili on the stove when it is cold outside...Halloween!!!

There are so many more loves that I can share but the most important love that I want to share is the love that I have for the human being that MY body grew. My first husband and I divorced because I could not give him a child. It wasn't the reason we used in court BUT deep down a woman knows why. I went through countless infertility treatments. 1 year of my life that I will never get back, wasted on infertility. Was it actually wasted? who knew that 11 yrs later, I would be married and in love with someone new, and have a baby totally by chance. No infertility drugs, no nothing. just plain and simple love. I look at his hands while I feed him and he holds on to my pinkie, squeezes just so and looks at me with total trust! That I think is my FIRST Love. Although I was just an incubator for 9 months because he looks NOTHING like me.. he looks just like his daddy. That doesn't matter.. I think his daddy is HAWT! Who knows what may happen in our years to come. I can honestly say that if I ever have to love again, the man will have to be something out of a fairy tale. I think I already have the best right now and I don't see how I can ever get better then him.

Tune in to tomorrow when I talk about my parents... Oh Boy!

3 comments:

Adorably Distracted... said...

Hahah I got nervous for a second with your comment! I was like ahhhh! haha he left on his own will though :) I never forced him as much as I was getting confused and hurt.

mixed girl said...

Geeeeezzzz L, you sure do know how to make a girl tear up! After reading today's post, I was almost in tears. Very insight info about your past, I never knew. I'm really happy for you! I know watching your "first love" grow will be an amazing experience!

Lorraine said...

love it, LA.
so happy you have your own little baby now